Reading a rather boring book (for most people) about some selected essays in the 'Economics of Backwardness' by Hans Singer, I managed to find a small paragraph completely disconnected with my prior motive for reading the book. I would like to make reference to such paragraph as it called my attention for the fairly appealing personal description of Hans Singer and the connection to my personal-self; a connection I would like to believe I found.
Although Singer’s background is highly qualified and bursting with honours in the academic realm, the paragraph makes a stand on the deceptive meekness about this person. The hilarious (yet encouraging?) contention that the force of Singer’s intelligence was concealed by the ‘even-tempered mildness of manner and modesty in debate,’ is quite a polemic matter for me. Is it a complement or a polite/mild manner to criticise and stigmatised reserved people? Personally I already had lots of trouble trying to understand the utterly reasons for people trying to change an inherent part of me… my inner quietness, ironically perceived (many times) as arrogance.
What I like the most, however, is the fact that the author describes Singer as giving the impression of a ‘troubled, uncertain but reasonable man who is used to being contradicted but would not dare himself to contradict.’ As soon as I read these lines I cried out loud: 'that's me, that's me!!' And then it came to my mind that that's how I would be reminded: troubled, uncertain but reasonable. For the rest: contradicted and not daring myself to contradict other people, I give my future judges the right to assert it for it is true. After several mental journeys I have come to a point where I can easily and happily accept my introversion as my inner and precious quality. For what it matters, I’ve always been surrounded by beloved people, and even though I could count them with my fingers, they are the ones bringing the ‘reasonable’ bit to my ‘troubled’ balance.
Mujer que Sueña que es Mar
