So many things going on now. I can't believe exams are so close and yet I can't manage to revise a single topic... I've been focusing on applying for PhDs and funding... in a shallow and scattered search for a future that don't know if I want. Seventeenth of June... that's the big day. Not only is the day when I take my last final exam, but also is my anniversary. The party is unavoidable!!
Next week is also my birthday. But honestly I have so many other things is mind that I can't think of anything better than staying in bed and watch a film... impossible of course provided that the very same day I have a tutorial and I need to revise for exams... I you want my opinion, birthdays suck!
Next week I also move to a new house. There are two feelings attach to it. First, a sense of sadness; afterall I'll be leaving the people I've been sharing my life with. We've had good and bad moments together, we've shared precious times together; to me that's a family! Second, I have an excited and thrilled feeling 'cause I'll be living with my dearest friend F. We know each other pretty well and after stating 100 times that we kindda lived together before, now we'll literaly do it... I just hope that F and F don't kill each other in the first week. Or shall I be concerned about me?
Too many changes for my small-scope will to make change. I hate change, I have always hated it! I love to have a monotonous life. I take the same route to classes, I love getting attach to something and never let go. And when I say this, I'm not only refereing to the fact that I'll be moving out of my house, but also to the whole change that is coming after I finish this programme. I have no idea what to do with my life. I don't know where I'll be, if working or studying, if unemployed or earning lots of money (dreaming is not forbidden, is it?). But I feel it coming and is affecting me in a great deal. I feel it coming and it hurts... people I won't see, places I won't go; it just doesn't feel right...
Yes, the countdown has just begun...
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